Tea For One

Inspired by: Scarlet by Khadeeja Farooqui, The song Black by Pearl Jam

Not very original. I can call it one of the best thing I can write. I know it strongly resembles Scarlet. Loses to it no doubt.

I make tea and go outside with the tray. As I pass the threshold I'm chilled to the bones. It's extremely cold outside. It's dawn and all I hear is the crying of different birds that have just woken up from a few hours of sleep. They are just warming up for their morning breakfast. I sit on one of the two chairs and place the tray on the ground. I pick up a cup and take a sip. It's bitter. But it doesn't matter. My life has become bitter since you've left me. I look at the tray again. There is another cup full to the brim with tea. I smile and look up. I'll never change, I think. It's been a year since you've gone and I'm still making tea for two. For us. Is it a tradition now? I don't know. Or is it because I miss you? I can't answer that one too. But the real reason might probably be because I don't want to believe that you've gone. Left me alone. Moved on. But I was still living in the past. Where it was not only me but us. I smiled slightly when I thought of our daily morning tea. You used to sit in the chair opposite to me. Laughing at my lame jokes. Hanging on to my every word. Or just closing your eyes and listening deeply to the different sounds of the birds. How I used to look at your face so attentively while you were preoccupied. How I counted those long beautiful eyelashes. How I loved your beautiful face for it. 

I blink, I was actually looking at the empty chair opposite to me. Instead of your face, I just see the back of the chair. I blink back tears. Remembering you is beautiful but also painful. I take another sip, a rather long sip which burns my tongue and brings tears to my eyes. But I don't wipe them away. Instead, I start crying loudly. Like a child. I cry to find comfort. You hated to see me sad. I think my tears will bring you back. But all I taste is my salty tears as they wash my cheeks and slowly fall drop by drop into your cup.